April 19, 2017
It's been a rough transition back to "normal" life. These last few weeks of acclimating from motion to stillness has been an adjustment to say the least.
When I was on the #moospiritquest I was forced to live in the present moment. Where was I going? What was I going to eat? Where will I stay? What should I check out? I had to figure out what I was going to do in every moment there wasn't time to think what's next. It was freakin' fantastic. I loved it! And I relished that way of being and living so much that I'm missing it now. I'm aching for it.
Things seemed so stable and stagnant when I returned home. And all the excitement and spontaneity of being on a road trip vanished. All the positivity and peace I cultivated on my trip, felt like it was dissolving into thin air. And all the crap I left behind was sitting right on my doorstep when I returned. It's funny how every time I leave my problems behind, they're always waiting for me, like I somehow think they'll magically disappear while I'm gone, if I just will it so.
I've realize now that isn't possible. I have to deal with and confront those things in order for them to go away. It was easier on my spirit quest to dig deep and reflect. The miles of road and solitude is a winning combination for self-reflection. But now I'm home and I have to bridge the two worlds somehow. I'm still trying to figure it out but I think the worst is behind me. The awkward transitional phase has passed. I'm remembering the importance of PMA (positive mental attitude). It changes everything. "Whether you think you or you think you can't, you're probably right." It's my favorite quote and Henry Ford couldn't be more right. I can decide how I feel about something and I can change the way I feel just by changing my outlook.