I’ve learned so much about myself and about life from trying to untangle balls of yarn. When I begin a new crochet project, that’s when the tangling starts. I’m ready to dive into my new project and before I can start I have to untangle a big mess of yarn. I start pulling and it gets worse. I try to gingerly slide the yarn through and knots begin to form. I try to stay cool and relaxed, but eventually frustration kicks in and I’m crying hot Pitta tears. “Why does this always happen?” I ask myself. It’s the question that arises each time. You’d think I’d be prepared, but I never am. This morning was no different and as the yarn got more and more tangled I was almost ready to cut off the mess and start a clean strand. But then I stopped myself. “This happens every time, Marissa,” I said silently in my mind. “Why do you expect this time to be any different?” Each time is the same. There’s nothing different I can do. But what I can do is change how I react to it. I’m going into the project expecting a different outcome, but it always begins with a tangled mess. And expectation is predetermined disappointment. So today instead of freaking out and guillotining my yarn. I took a few deep belly breaths, looked for the yarn end and started untangling. I took my time. I had patience. I kept my Pitta frustration tears at bay. And eventually the knots were gone and I was ready to start making my Panchakarma slippers.
In those moments of untangling I realized this experience relates to more than just my crochet projects. It relates to my life. Life can be tough. Life can be hard. Life can be a giant, tangled, frustrating mess. Sometimes or even most of the time, there’s little you can do to change that. But I know I can change my reaction to it. Instead of rushing and forcing, I can stop, take a beat and begin the process of unraveling. Not only does it save me time, it saves my sanity. I’m taking this newfound knowledge with me as I work to unravel the stands of frustration in my mind. It will require all the patience, perseverance and calm that it takes to untangle this yarn. But in the end I will have fixed the mess and I’ll be ready to begin anew.